Lean into Jesus Ministries welcomes this week’s guest blogger, Debra Bean, to our blog!  Debra’s testimony is a beautiful story of God’s deliverance and love. Thank you, Debra, for sharing your story with our readers.

Let the Walls Fall Down

It is so easy to decide try to change your life for the better, but so hard to let go and let the change happen.  Following through with the decision is hard because throughout life, the hurts we’ve suffered causes us to build up walls.  We put up those walls prevent further destruction, but we don’t know how to let them down later.

In my life, I always blamed everyone else for hurting me instead of accepting the responsibility of my actions.  I became tired of the cruelty of humanity and withdrew to a world of loneliness and substance abuse –even though I had been a “church goer” for years.

In fact, I had accepted Jesus as Savior -I was saved.  I worked in the church, and thought I knew God -until my life fell apart.  Tragedy struck in a short burst of events.  My mother passed away, divorce, my youngest child was encompassed by the drug world, and my brother (whom I looked up to and was a Pastor) came out of the “closet” and later died.  Instead of turning to God, I turned to drugs.  I knew the scriptures, but could not understand how He could let me hurt so much.

On my own, over time I backed away from God.  The walls just got taller and taller.  Ten years later, a friend from the church I attended found me.  I was tired of my life and days away from certain death.  My church friend came to my rescue.  She drove me to church and held me accountable.  She helped me find hope.

I fought against letting my guard down until I was so exhausted I couldn’t fight any more.  In the altar I told Jesus that I wanted one more chance.  That was the night I dropped all the walls.  I have never felt so free in my life!  I was totally set FREE from drug addiction and the hurts of the past.  It all happened with one short prayer of accepting Him.  In a few short minutes, my life was turned right side up!  All the walls fell and the love poured in and overflowed my soul.  Never had I experienced such joy!

A year and a half has passed.  To think how a life can be changed in a few short minutes is nothing short of miraculous.  Jesus made it possible.  To consider how much He cared for me and how He sent someone to find me so I would not die in sin is love beyond measure.  It only took a minute; a prayer….it took Jesus.  Thank you Jesus!

Debra Bean

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Lean into Jesus Ministries

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